And the days go on.....

Time seems to be the healer of all wounds. Why is that? Is it that the longer the days go - the less pain you feel? And so by definition the wounds have healed? Well I guess so - most cuts and scrapes do heal in time and I guess the heart is the same. We get away from the pain and the heart starts to heal. It is so clear to me to see that the closer you are in a situation and the longer you stay in one, there is absolutely no healing. There is just no time. The pain is constant - why do we stay? Is it that I am taught that pain and suffering "with" someone is better than happiness "without"? Sure does suck. Well all I can say is that life sucks and pain is part of it and as the title says Life goes on!

Me and my life!

I've titlted this blog because I have got ot move on. Have you ever just been stuck in a place of pain and suffering? I have been in it for about a month. I just recently broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. So painful. At 40 you think your life is set...and in my case set - not happy - just set. Had a place to live, had some pets, had a decent job and had someone in my life. Looking at the bigger picture who cares if I liked the apartment but longed to live in SF, who cares if I had a cat that is autistic and I barely got any sleep at night, and who cares if I had someone in my life that had stopped caring about me and cheated on me long before the breakup. Right? Why is longevity so important - is quality better than quantity?? My parents are celebrating their 50th anniversay - where did I learn that being together no matter what was more important than being happy? Who knew? Then again I sometimes think that maybe I just don't deserve to be happy. Not too sure where that came from either. Ah - such is life. With breakup comes therapy, work outs and lots of wine. This really (once again) is the first day of the rest of my life!