I think I hate it...

Dating that is...It's so freaking complicated and scary. Like - what should I do now, is it too soon to call her, what should I wear, Does she like me....??? And on and on and on. Then you call her or text her then you wait. Waiting is what I think kills me the most. And then all the thoughts and panic come in. At what point am I going to realize that I am the most awesome person and that knowing me and dating me is the most excting thing in the world. Oh how I wish someday to believe it....I mean truly believe it. I know it in my head - but my heart ---ooh well that would just be so arrogant of me...huh?